I just seriously feel like giving up on asking you to come lifegroup and church. Just for once you can't come? Always say next week seriously when will your next week come? Next week you're starting school? I see that you won't come at all. Want us to be together in future isn't easy do you know that? I have to bring you to know God and accept God. I just wonder if God really wants us to be together forever? I really need to pray and ask God. It's isn't easy for my parents to kept asking are you coming to church and blah blah. I have to always find a god damn reason to tell them. -.- how pressurize am I ? U don't know.

Mum was right, I might not know whether will you change of heart after you enter army? Cause you've been to army. Not mature enough about love? We are still young and have a long way to go till marriage. I wonder how life will it be if one day you would decide to leave and end our relationship. Though we spent 8 months together, going thru so much fights quarrels and argument but it actually brought us closer. We did so many things together, many meals, many movies, many shopping, many many outing. You took care, spent money, spent most of your time with Me. But I dunno what the future gonna be? You always say you won't go for other girl now but in future I won't know right? Sometimes you do things by talking to girls would really made ME feel damn jealous but what can i do? Keep quiet and just let it be? But whatever you do I love you still nothing would change my love for you baby. <3