I miss the old you.
Monday, September 12, 2011
I always wished you can don't flirt or fool around behind me. But I know it's impossible because it's common for a guys to do that. But then if you truly love me you won't do this to me. I can't promise you this that I won't tie you down again, won't control you so strict. It's really hard for me not to tie you down. You yourself know yourself very well? You know what you will do when you're a free man? That's why I told you that don't put too much high hopes on this relationship. I don't want you to force yourself to stay with me? You just don't know how I feel when there's girls around you? :( I have no choice but just to keep quiet though I'm jealous....... You just don't know how I feel although you say you know? I'm going to leave a heavy heart to Hainan on Wednesday midnight. And yet we're spending the next few days together. Sometimes I want to know why is it so hard for me to see you when I miss you so badly? I think you don't miss me as much as I miss you. But you suddenly changed into someone that I don't know at all? But you said yesterday that you would change back to urself. It's just so hurting. I just don't know how to go on with my life anymore. I just feel like crying and crying. You just don't know how I feel seriously. I just have to keep it in my heart. Only I myself know it's feels. I don't feel as secure as last time anymore, I don't feel u as much as before. I just don't feel anything. Its just so different already. I don't know how long I can take it? Maybe I would be the one that is leaving next not you though I really can't but I really can't take it already. I really hate it when you flirt but it's something that it can't be changed. I do text guys but I don't flirt I'm not like you.
I lost you once again
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Sigh. I lost you again. Life really suck when you decide to part away from me yesterday. I'm nt yours anymore. Everything is different. You changed won't be the one I know few months back? :( I missed the old you. I hope for your return soon. U do what you like, when u need me then come bck to me k. I will wait cause I luv u. <3
Accept the fact.
Thursday, September 08, 2011
Sorry baby. I really know how you feel right now. I'm sorry for causing you in your situation nw. I tie you down too much I regret till now we have to time out? It's hurts me badly but there's no otter choice. I have to accept the fact and live with it till you come back to me. I won't go with other guy but jus you cause I only love you no one else. Stop crying, I'm not worth ur tears. I miss the old us, I don't the us now. It's hurts me badly when I see you cry. :'( my heart shattered totally after just now. I can't let you go but to held you back for me to cry on you as if you're dead. Idk why? But I don't like this word time out cause I'm afraid of time out. I really hope you will come back to me cause I'm waiting for you always. I know it's difficult for you to get bck ur feelings for me after what I have done? I love you only so does bear bear.
I love you
Saturday, September 03, 2011